Not what I was hoping for

So I said I was going to update as soon as I found out James' results from his semen analysis, but yesterday our power was out all day so I wasn't able to get on the computer:( Anyways we found out the results within one day of him going in and they definitely weren't what I was hoping for, hence the title of this post. First of all it has been over two years from when he had surgery and if his sperm were going to improve I think it would've happened by now, and well it didn't.

The semen analysis from before the surgery had a total count of 10 million which sounds like a lot but is really considered low and the results post surgery is actually only 8.4 million, somebody tell me how this is even possible. I thought having surgery was supposed to increase his sperm not decrease it. His motility is still okay I think it was about 54 % and for those of you reading this who aren't sure what motility is it's just the way the sperm swim. The one thing I was grateful for is that his morphology is still good, this is the one really important factor in determining whether a couple can get pregnant or not. A man can have 600 million sperm for example but if they are shaped wrong it won't matter because they will not be able to penetrate the egg. I know it's crazy all this talk about sperm but when you're suffering with infertility you do A TON OF READING AND RESEARCHING:)

After getting these results James and I were kind of bummed especially James because I think he thought for sure we would still be able to get pregnant without having to do any kind of fertility treatments, while I on the other hand pretty much assumed we'd still have to do at least IUI even if things had improved. He just keeps saying over and over to me "I'm sorry I can't get you pregnant." I feel really bad for him because although we're pretty sure the reason I haven't been able to get pregnant is his sperm, I don't consider it his fault it's OUR infertility problem! So now here we are again waiting and trying to decide what to do next, it seems you do a lot of that when you're trying to have a baby. We've decided to switch to a new doctor, I really like Dr. Blauer but after a couple times of going there and not really getting much help from his staff we figured it was time to move on. We're attending a free patient education seminar next week where this new doctor we've decided to see will be speaking, and he's offering anyone who comes to the seminar 50 % a new patient consultation with him so we're really excited. Instead of paying $230 for a consult which I'd gladly pay we're only going to pay $115. I'm really excited for this and hopefully we'll be able to get in to see him this month so we can start 2012 off with a plan! If anyone is reading this and has any experience with their husband having a varicocele and they went through the surgery, can you tell me what were your results post surgery and what have you been told about your chances of getting pregnant?

DISCLAIMER: The cartoon at the top is not meant to represent our situation, I just thought it was hilarious and sometimes I feel like James' sperm might as well be frogs because they aren't doing their job LOL:)